I need to end this relationship.
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The problem with my relationship with my friend is that I give Her all of my time and attention when She is around at the exclusion of my family, my friends and even myself. In a good relationship, both parties should grow, not one whither and one thrive.
She encourages me to sit quietly and silently at Her side. To just relax and let the World pass me by. She encourages me to silently accept Her and to not let anyone know that She is there.
Quiet moments are good for the heart and mind. Rest and relaxation are essential for the health and well-being of the body and mind, but too much of either is not a good thing.
Breaking away from this relationship will not be easy. She will not go away quietly. She will kick and scream. She will dig Her claws into my mind and say all those phrases that have always held sway with me...but I will be the strong one this time...I WILL be the dominant one...I WILL win, for I know without my weakness, time and attention She will lose strength, whither and cease to have a hold on me.
I know that She will never go away. She will lurk in the shadows and bid her time hoping that I will give in to Her seductive call.
I am grateful for those things She has taught me. To sit quietly and reflect on my life, but I will no longer neglect the other aspects of my life for Her.
I will let Her go. Divorce myself from Her!
It will be a sad farewell for me, I can admit. I will be losing a part of myself.
The space that she occupied will be filled with something more positive. I cannot leave that space empty, like I have done in the past, for She will try to weasel Her way back in. (It is a mistake that I have done in the past!)
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| Do not be afraid to truly see Your Self! |
That Space will be filled with a new relationship. I will insert a new friendship. It will be an uncomfortable one...at first, but like any relationship worth having, it will blossom!
I will seek a relationship with My Self. That Self that I wish/want/desire to be.
Having a relationship with Self can be very awkward. I know this Self, but I have never sought out Her attention. She is strong, vibrant. She is love and wisdom. She is gentleness, yet with conviction. She has courage. She is Mother and Goddess. She is lover and friend.
She is My Self...She is Me!
Blessings and Love, Faye
