I watched the watchers. I watched what could have been a tragedy unfold and just how quickly it became a spectator sport. The people that filled up my parking lot to gawk at the accident, take pictures and sometimes get in the way. I wanted to scream at the watchers to either help or get lost.
The ones that touched my heart were the men that ran to help as soon as the accident happened. (It is a very small town and there are plenty of guys that are trained as volunteer firemen and paramedics.) One young was really shook up when he came into the store, after the emergency crews showed up, to wash the blood off his shaking hands.. He couldn't have been more than 20, a former volunteer fireman that was in town visiting his girlfriend.
Both drivers lived and there were no passengers in either vehicle. I simple mistake of running a red light on a 40 mph highway that could have been worse.
I realised that I felt helpless. I wanted to run out and help. How? I don't know. There were plenty of people who knew what to do out there at the scene. I didn't want to be a nuisance so I kept my distance.
The rest of my shift was a blur.
Life is short. So very, very short.
It can end or altar drastically in an instant.
I am NOT where I want to be at this moment in my life. That is a fact.
I have found several "reasons" why I am only making baby steps to get to where I want to be. Those are excuses!
Some of the reasons are legitimate, but too many of them are from my ego, myself and my fears getting in the way.
One legitimate one is my financial situation. It sucks! (As my daughter would say.) Yet, I know that it will improve and I will HAVE TO start taking larger strides in the direction that I want to travel.
There is a plan forming in my head. It starts at Yule. I should have my internet back up by then (it will be going off in a few days of this posting) and I will be sharing my experiences with you. I will try very hard to do this daily. It's something that I haphazardly started on Summer Solstice and I have to confess I haven't been as ardent as I should have been.
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| Mama Moon and Me |
From now till Yule I will be studying my minuscule witchy library and coming up with tasks for me to do to better myself and my life.
There is way too much of life that I have yet to live.
Changes will occur. (I am not comfortable with change!)
The road will fork from time to time.
But I have faith!
After all...Life Is Too Short... for me to let it pass me by.
I owe it my children...
...I owe it to myself!
Life is too short...
Time To Live!
Blessings and Love
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